About Blogs and xLog#
Writing a diary is an intermittent behavior for me. Since I developed this habit, I have written over 20 articles. Some of them were shared as public content on my friends' circle and Twitter, while others were written and then stored in Evernote without being read again.
Generally, I hope that others can read what I write, but I feel that my words are too tasteless and I am too embarrassed to let others see them.
Blogs give me the option to share my thoughts publicly while keeping me away from the evaluations of social media. The blockchain blog provided by xLog ensures that my writings will not be lost. I am very grateful for this, but I also worry about whether the commercialization model of this platform can support its continued operation. I hope that after I die, these things can be used as data to train AI and allow me to continue living as a digital life on the Internet.
About Singapore 🇸🇬#
I initially came to Singapore because of the internet and web3 frenzy in 2021, which made me feel that there are more opportunities here compared to China. However, now, over a year later, with companies laying off employees one after another, an influx of foreign nationals, and skyrocketing prices, my initial thoughts are not as firm anymore. Additionally, Moon is still in China, so maybe a few months later, I will also return to my home country.
I used to believe that people should make sacrifices for their career development. However, in reality, the so-called "career development" is likely just a human fantasy. The life experiences accumulated during good times may become worthless much faster than we imagine, whether it is coding in front of ChatGPT or high-paying internet jobs in this increasingly conflicted era.
Singapore is a good place, even if the things that initially attracted me are no longer here, I still feel this way, especially as a Chinese person with yellow skin. Although the various sophisticated designs in society make me feel like it is a big government country, the difference lies in the general knowledge, scientific understanding, and most importantly, the respect for citizens. I am very happy that there is still such a Chinese society in this world. It is a pity that I did not catch the right timing, but if I have the opportunity, I still want to come back here, hopefully with Moon next time.
About Recent Life#
Recently, I have been interning at a German company for nearly four months. The work I am doing is completely different from my previous semiconductor work. The work pressure is extremely low, there is no need to clock in, I can leave around 5 o'clock every day, I can work from home for two days a week, and there are many holidays. But to be honest, I am not happy with my job.
Many of my colleagues in the company have been working here since they graduated, for nearly 30 years. The work content is also dull and boring, which easily makes me doubt the value of what I am doing. As an intern, I cannot provide suggestions to the company's technical architecture for things that I think can be improved, after all, it is not my responsibility.
Sometimes, I even start to miss the standardized processes and technical architecture at Huawei and the fulfilling life I had before. I think I must be crazy.
About the Past Three Years#
It has been three years since I graduated from university. I have always wondered what would have happened if I hadn't been so determined to go to Japan to study and had instead started working at an internet company after graduation. What would have happened if I hadn't chosen to go to Hong Kong or Singapore for the Gap Year, but instead went directly to NUS? What would have happened if, besides NUS, Canadian universities had also offered me an offer?
Regret and waste are probably the best summaries of my past three years. I changed jobs twice, spent a year studying for a master's degree, and ended up back where I started after graduating from undergraduate. But honestly, I have no regrets. I can even say that I have already accomplished everything I wanted to do and have everything I wanted to have. Even if tomorrow is the last day on Earth, I can accept it peacefully.
I worked at a company in the country I once admired and experienced the working atmosphere there. I worked at a company I used to dislike, changed some of my biases, and did some things that I considered valuable. I attended a well-known school to pursue a master's degree in the field I am interested in (AI + robotics). And most importantly, I met Moon.
I was very uneasy when Moon and I started a long-distance relationship, and we did encounter many conflicts. However, it is gratifying that these conflicts have made our relationship closer and closer. I also know more and more about what is truly important in my life.
Career and money are important, and a man needs a career to become the most important pillar of the family. But compared to family, career and money are insignificant. On the last day of life, no one will regret earning less money at that time or missing out on career development opportunities. However, they will definitely regret owing their family and the people they love. Fortunately, I realized this early enough and have not made any mistakes.
I will be 25 in two months. I wish myself a happy 25th birthday in advance, and I hope you are happy too.